JOY OR SADNESS GRASS IS GROWING

-------------------------- reminiscences -------------------

2009-10-28T11:16:00.000-07:00

REVIEW

On the way back

in the train

the surrounding changes so quickly

From the lowlands towards the mountains

everything seems so different...

what was near is now far away

and what was far is becoming nearer and nearer

I can feel the mountain air in the distance

I can feel the smell of the ocean as well

from the ocean towards the mountains

from the rain towards the sun

from the Celts towards the Slavics

from now towards now

and from there towards there

everything seems so far away

everything seems to be so near

the change is here

SHOOL OF LIFE

Hard times

Good times

No difference

School of life

the best one

for everyone

rainy winter

darkness

and the tyranny

followed by spring

that sunny was

and full of friends

why go home?

I don´t know

just listen

to my inner voice

to the spirit of the forest

to the voice of freedom

the woolfs are howling

I can hear the drums in the distance

and have to run

run there

where the people

sing next to the fire

my dear brothers

and sisters

the light family

made of the indigo light

where without the fight

we share what shared be might

the only important thing

which everybody knows

just forgot about it

the God's essence

which everybody has

in the heart

in the hearth

where the love is

the love that spread is

eco house

2009-10-16T03:54:00.000-07:00

Everything is possibe. It seems that there is no need to built big, expensive and ugly houses.
There are so many possibilities. Here is one of them:

http://calearth.org/

Maybe later :-)

summer of love

2009-09-20T04:25:00.000-07:00

Yes, yes, yeeees, why I don't care about my blog? But there is a reason that is going to be explained...
After I left my job in Ireland (what nobody expected neither did I) I came home for 3 weeks. and I enjoyed it really a lot! I met all the friends again and I saw the beauties of the magical Slovak nature again...
12th July the big day came and we started our big journey to the countries of southeastern Europe and we started our new job :-) Our working agreement was not so well done - we didn't have any idea how much we will earn, where we will sleep next day and our future was absolutely unsure :-D We became street musicians. Rodan as a very good musician, who plays everything he touch, this time learnt how to play the bagpipes and I as an absolutely beginner tried how to play the shamanic drum.

We started our journey in the north Croatia in Rijeka and we were heading for Greece.
In Croatia hitchhiking and basking weren't the best, but we tried to enjoy it and felt like on holidays - every second day in a different town, every day swimming in the sea and everyday evening work :-)
Monte Negro was even nicer - big mountains, the sea and fjords. Sometimes we felt like in the Norway just the temperature was probably much higher. There was just one problem - with our big backpacks and musical instruments to reach the top of the mountains was quite complicated. The only thing we could do was to look to the mountains from the see level and bark at the moon.
But anyway it was a great experience to live like this! From the beginning I was a bit shy to play in front of the audience because I have never done something like this but slowly slowly it started to be OK. I liked to watch the people's reactions and tried to guess what they are thinking about when they saw us playing. Some of them really enjoyed the music, started to dance and gave us some money, some of them just past, some of them commented that we should rather find a normal job and maybe they thought that we are just beggars without any home and education. If they new that we bought finished university :-D
After Monte Negro we passed Albania and it's capital Tirana. I can not really say anything from one day visit and only capital... But OK we were in Tirana and it was obvious that it is totally different culture to other European countries. I rather felt like somewhere in Asia than in Europe. I just remember that we saw a lot of colorful concrete blocks of flats and some mosque in the center and that's it. But I believe it can be a beautiful country covered with nice mountains and full of forgotten small villages...
After long long time spent in a bus and only 200 km in the dark night we got out from the bus in Macedonia. We had absolutely no idea where we will sleep and it was impossible to find a place for our tent. Situation started to be quite difficult because Rodan was sick so we ended up in a first guest house we found. But the next days was OK. We came to the nice ancient town called Ohrid. We enjoyed that we didn't need to play so much because everything was quite cheap.
When the moon was full we at last reached our dream destination Greece and beautiful town near the big lake Kastoria where we were invited for a Greek party with Greek music, Greek food and Greek everything... We stayed in a nice old house for 2 days and met very interesting people like hippie in hearth Nikos, who time to time lives in a cave or makers of ancient Greek musical instruments.
We visited and played in quite a lot of places of the northen Greece like Thessaloniky, much from Chalkidiky, beautifull town built on a hill - Kavala (where we earned unbelievably 140 Euro) and the magical island full of good energy Samotraky.
Samotraky was our holiday destination. Till that time we played nearly every day and we usually didn't spent more then 2 nights on 1 place what wasn't easy sometimes. We needed to go to holidays from our holidays :-)
It is a very special and beautiful island. In the middle there is summer residence of Zeus - mount Fengary, what means moon in Greek. It is great view from there to the both sides of the island. There is aninteresting magical forest with old Platanus trees that remember a lot from the past and the gorges are filled with glassclear water that creates waterfalls and small ponds where you can swim. Many people do so and quite a few from them are naked so we had the feeling that we must be probably in paradise :-)
In the village Therma we felt like back to the 60's - you go to do shoping and you can listen to the Doors, in taverna Led Zeppelin, another place - Dead can dance... Village is full of long haired hippies and stalls with beads, krystals and other interesting things.
This was our last trip together in Greece for the moment because dear Rodan had to live home. Children in the school were waiting for him.
But somehow I didn't really feel like going home so I stayed and tried to explore the other unknown greek places. Anyway I left my job, so what to do home now...
I am very lucky that I found somebody like him and he understood and didn't say anything about my choice. Sometimes it might be a bit difficult with me but I just need to go through it :-D I have always wanted to try to travell alone and know this feeling. I quite like it but I think it is even much nicer to share the experience but before I tried it I didn't know...
It is sometimes interesting, sometimes a bit sad, sometimes full of joy, sometimes adventurous, sometimes a bit dangerous, sometimes unsure but still it is just another interesting life experience that hopefully will bring me there where I always wanted to go - to the open hearth and peaceful mind.

Ocean dolphins and hills in Irish style

2009-06-09T16:36:00.000-07:00

Yes I did it! At last I was two days off! And what to do? No way I will stay here in this busy city!
I opened a map of Ireland, found some national park and made a midnight decision. I packed my rucksack and set up my alarm to 5:30 in the morning.
Let's go to Galway - county on the west coast well known for beautiful nature and real Irish people that still use the Gaelic language.

Wow I get off from the bus in Galway and I didn't really know what I am doing here, where I will go and where I will sleep. But I found a tourist info, grabbed a map and went just straight away. It was very untypical weather for Ireland: 25 degrees and sunny. After few kilometers I started to hitch-hike and the journey began :-)
At the end of the day I found myself "surfing" in the ocean on the lent surfboard and listening to an interesting stories about ocean life from Anthony - the Irish guy I stopped somewhere in the hills.
Fuuuuu but this surfing is not as easy as I thought! It just seems to be. I hardly could sit on it! Sooo funny...
And this surronding there! It was some not very known beach so there were only few people there. Nice white sand, rocks, few islands in the distance and opened ocean. I couldn't believe it. When I was a child and I imagined the sea - it looked like this.

After a while something appeared in the distance. Anthony told it might be dolphins. And he was absolutely right. They were coming nearer and nearer and stayed there quite a long time. They were playing their games and they jumped from and into the water for maybe 3 hours.
Great sea beings!

I was falling asleep listening to the silent waves of the ocean and looking at the moon. If not those little flies :-) ...but totally by accident Anthony had a tent in the car so he lent it to me till the next morning because he went back to the town and stayed in the hostel. So I rather went in and slept by calm intensive energetic sleep.

I had an idea! I would like to go for a trek. But how and where? OK somehow. I started to hitch-hike and after a while the car with two Irish boys stopped. I asked them where they were going and the told me that trekking :-)
So I joined them and we had a fun. One of them - Diarmuid had a song for everything. Together they were very funny and I am glad I met them. We went together to one of the hills in Connemara national park. I was really impressed by the view! I wished I could stay there at least for one more day...

When we came down back to the car Diarmuid said to Ultan: "Come on Ultan! Girl from Slovakia is here we need to show her more..." So this is how I've seen the only Irish fjord. I have just one word for it very often used by Irish - gorgeous!

When I came home I was full of joy and thanks.
I looked at the map again and was surprised. Before I left Galway I just had a feeling that I would like to go to Baliconeely beach or maybe Roundstone. But I didn't remember the names just the position on the map. But when I was hitch-hiking it seemed to me that I am going somewhere else probably because I took different way that I wanted originally to take. But suddenly I realized that I visited both of this places without knowing about it.
And actually when I was in the bus I just visualized me sleeping next to the ocean an very nice place...
Everything came true!!! The power of visualization is very very strong. We people sometimes underestimate our big potential! We could visualize whatever we want and it will become true. This planet could be a paradise if we visualized it. We just need to believe in it and have a clear vision of our target. Everything else will just happen. We just need to let the heaven to do it's job.
May all the people find the god that is just in them. May all the people realize that we already are in heaven. May may may not only in May we all create the new dream of our planet :-)

HAWK

Fasting

2009-04-23T12:54:00.000-07:00

Spring time is the best time for cleaning the car. This year I decided to clean my car on earth - my body again.
Last year I had ideal conditions - I could go to the forest every day, I went to sauna, I could make a fresh juice every day but my confidence wasn't very strong. But anyway I did 7 days without the food.
This year was different. My confidence was quite strong, but the conditions...
In the middle of the city from which is not so easy to escape. I just started my new job after 2 months of unemployment so I had to go there every day and ... Irish people don't know what does it mean clyster... But anyway I did 4 and half days without food, just water and the nettle tea.

It was interesting to observe it. First day was easy because I already got used to it. Second and third day was a bit harder. There were whiles when everything slowed down and I just wanted to stop. But it wasn't possible because I was working and people kept asking questions and I had to continue. The fourth day I was off but I had to go to the city center. I was walking through the street of illusions - Grafton street and everything seemed to be very very slowly. I could feel tangle of aromas - Mc Donald, Govinda, Burger king, flowers, perfumes etc., I could hear people herd - voices condensed into one voice noise and I felt like in some computer program.

The next day I went to another pharmacy and asked the same question about clyster and I heard the same answer. This day I gave up. I cooked rice and started to eat. But anyway I thing it was very good and now I feel much better. My smell is much better, mind is not so busy than it used to be and the mark that was on my leg for nearly one year just disappeared.

Ajajaj I can recommend it to everybody. Here is the link where I found more information about it: http://www.healthy.net/scr/article.asp?ID=1996.

mana mana

2009-04-07T05:13:00.001-07:00

Lightworkers UNITE!

2009-03-31T11:08:00.000-07:00

right and left

2009-03-31T10:41:00.000-07:00

This moment practice...

2009-03-30T07:28:00.000-07:00

Time is relative...when I found myself sliding on the road after I fell down from the bicycle in 70 km per hour speed everything was going very slowly. I had time to think where to put my hands, what to do with my head and how to place my body...
Everything went so slowly and that moment I was just "here and now". I wasn't thinking about what I will do tomorrow or what I will eat for the lunch...
My guardian angels had to do a lot of work. They had to make sure that there is no car coming and they helped me to get out of it only with few marks and tattered jacked...
Thank you my dears :-)
It was a good lesson...

Dreeeam

2009-03-27T05:18:00.000-07:00

I was just living the ordinary life at that moment. I lived in a house with some people. Everyone there had its own "problems" and rules. Sometimes these people tried to "attack" me because I didn´t do something according to their own conception. My reaction to that challenges was very phlegmatic.
I was explaining my consideration to a friend. I told her I felt that it was not good being stoic. I was just hiding my emotions behind but they were still there waiting to be manifested. I couldn´t be harmonic inside with this attitude.
Suddenly a woman came to me and told she knew what was good for me.
Some Japanese people appeared and one of them was the master. He was the master of substantiation. I sat on the floor in lotos position and he was teaching. He showed people how to materialize the vegetarian chines food. The food just appeared on the wok.
I saw a bag there and I new the treasure was in it. But I couldn´t see what is in it because first I had to take a journey. I wandered through the desert. Some ninjas from the sky tried to attack me with the arrows but that time I was already a big master so I just swung the arms and the arrows was broken. I continued the journey and suddenly I came to the stairs that was made of sand as well. At the beginning it was easy to walk on them. It became harder and harder and suddenly I found myself on the wall made of sand and it was impossible to go any further. I had to fight not to fall down and there was a moment I nearly gave up and died. But something came into my mind and told me to keep going. I braced my energies and tried to climb again. It didn´t take long time and I saw the destination. I easily reached the point where I could rest.
But what was there? It was this bag with treasure that I saw at the beginning of my journey. I took it, looked inside, and started to laugh from the heart. I have never laugh so openly before. I couldnt stop.
There was just some chines food that I liked and then some of my old bijouterie in which some bits were broken. I had to take all the dangerous journey to come here and realized that not big tresures or anything very special make me really happy but the small things and detailes like good food, sunshine, communication or even grain of sand. Not the happy past moments make us happy, not the future that maybe will be nice but the particular moment is the only one which makes us really happy.

Shambala Budhist Center

2009-03-26T09:09:00.000-07:00

http://dublin.shambhala.info/

La Loba

2009-03-12T15:18:00.000-07:00

Spontanity - BEST quality

2008-12-22T13:23:00.000-08:00

I have planed to publish this article three months ago! It was nearly ready but... Anyway it is better to publish it now than never! So here it is:

Yes yes long time not seen long time not hear.
But why? There has to be some reason. I think, there exists some thief of the time here in this city full of people, cars and polluted air. Everybody is just running. To catch its own funeral?...

I stayed in Dublin 3 weeks without going somewhere out and I just had the feeling that I have to do something with this before I will become totally mad. And suddenly I found me sitting in the train, going somewhere don't know where, where the ghosts of land ancestors are nearer and time is just going slowly like the smoke from the pipe. Looking out from the window of the train that is going to the unknown land...yes that was this feeling that I missed so much...

I love when I can just pack my rucksack in a short time and go. I don´t know. It is really hard for me to imagine me staying in one place for a rest of my life. Its impossible!!! There have to be some ghosts of nomads around me whispering all the time "Šššššš rucksack ššššš forest ššš mountains šššššššššš....."

From the unknown town to the unknown place by bus. Not so far but still very interesting.
Driver stopped next to the lodge in the middle of the dark and I felt again like that time in Azia... There have been nearly no people there. I expected the well known sentence "If you eat here, you can sleep for free :-) " I went for a walk outside. I tried to find that place which was 5000 years old where the megalithic people were greeting the sun, which started to come back in the middle of the winter. The name of the place was Newgrange. I walked around the darkness like a cat around hot mush. Suddenly I decided to cross the dark and try to find that place. I was walking and walking but...probably it was too far to reach it, so I came back. Anyway, I had a good walk. And ... when I came back to the hostel, I met a scientist from some Irish university and he explained me everything what I needed to know about Newgrange. It felt like I met some messenger that has been sent to me because I didn`t know much about this complex, I just had the feeling that I have to go there.

Next morning was busy. There have been many people in front of the entrance waiting for the sun. There were also some people with drums and everyone wished to see the sun. But sun decided not to come. Actually it came but it had been hidden beyond clouds. Irish weather is Irish weather. But anyway it was a great experience to be there.
We were also able to go into the chamber. It was an interesting feeling to be inside of the complex that was at least 5000 years old. There were pictures of spirals graven into the stone. It was great!

It was just 10 o´clock in the morning and I was thinking what to do. I didn´t want to go back to Dublin so early. But my mind tried to tell me to go back to thebus and get out of there but my feelings had told me not to go yet so I just passed the bus because I wanted to make the last photograph and after that I wanted to go.
But there I met Shoan - the great person. He told me another stories not just about Newgrange but also about Dowth and other simmilar tombs in the surrounding. He told that today at 3pm is the only day in the year when the Dowth tomb is opened. It was the place where once a year at the day of wintersolstice the leaving sun reach the chamber.
That sounded interesting. I started to think about it and I thought that I stay around and come back at 3 o`clock. But he had one free seat in the car and invited me to join him and his friends.
I could feel from him that he is a good person with a good heart. Actually his aura was similar to my fathers - no time for hesitation, lets go! :-)

Yes and it was great - lunch in an Irish pub with another interesting people, hill of the Witch (also called Sliabh na Calli) with a magical bench where everyone can make one wish and it will become true, Magic well that heals illnesses and at the end the Dowth passage tomb.
I had a great feeling from the whole day. I was so lucky to meet all this nice people and see all this nice places full of ancient energy.

Sometimes it`s unbelievable what can happen when you are not expecting anything. This are the moments without fear when you are just connected with your inner voice. Heart always knows what`s good for you. It is worth to listen to it.

Maria trip

2008-10-18T16:51:00.000-07:00

Walking without any target...

2008-10-10T16:00:00.000-07:00

Walking without any target.
Yes it was that, what I needed yesterday after
3 days sitting in front of the computed and searching for the work...
I was just walking between walls of family gardens...

and cubic trees on public spaces...

...it was ok...BUT...I was searching for a bit of nature, for a bit of free non-private ground, where I just can lie and watch the clouds...
...and suddenly the sea appear afar off...but I needed to found a way to it, cause there was a stone fence around the coast...
...but I found it and keep walking to the rocky part, where the birds was singing their song...

...there wasn`t any tree elfs, but on other side there had to be some sea-maidens for sure...

I just keep walking and the green park appear...

...and after it, I just walked on the sandy sand for few hours...

...I know the view was´nt the best I´ve ever seen

...but I could just change the perspective and it was better...

And suddenly sun came out of the clouds and I was sooooo happy to see it. It took maybe 5 minutes, but it was very positive...

...later found a little bit of wildness - reservation...just grass and shrubs was growing there...I felt on the ground - the sea-maidens were making the waves in the distance...

"Aaaaaaaaaaagaaaaaaa...", the dark was coming soon, I had to go back to the world, where the humans are living and creating their reality, some people call it Matrix.
I was walking through the industrial area full of container classes from all over the world and through the are where the dirty water is going out from the city, where too many people lives on one place.

At the end I came to the world of glass buildings and electric lights...I just hear a japanese song from Manga film in my head "Agaaaaaaaaaaa........."

Yes there are a lot of people in Dublin city centre...and because I don´t like so many people on one place, I am trying to like it and meditate when I am in this big mass. Trying to be a part of the mass but to be aware all the time, this will be my exercises for other few months...

peace and love

2008-10-02T17:13:00.000-07:00

The sun was shining today and I was walking with the hippie dog along the beach. The wind was blowing and suddenly I had the feeling, that he wants to tell me something.
So I started to listen to him. He was speaking something about peace, love, unity...Then I suddenly start to think about it, how would it look without duality. If we make differences between everything, it is duality. If we compare this with that, it is duality. If we love something more that something else, again...But what will happen, if we suddenly just love without any expectations? Everything just disappears and only unity will staaaaaaaaaaaaaay. What a nice feeling...

Once I had a big teacher. His name was Mr. Prasik, but people called him just Piggy. He was the one, that was always speaking these things about love, peace and unity. But I never understood him. But maybe from today, I am little bit nearer to his big teaching. He had a big big rose aura, he was always just smoking the pipe and telling wisdom...

I think I will try to love my enemies from today :-)

Thank you wind, for your whispering...

Welcome to IRELAND

2008-10-01T15:50:00.000-07:00

I don't know why, but this country is somehow very likeable for me. It is my 2^nd time in Ireland and it seems to me, that people here are very very kind. It seems to me, that I already used to live here som of my previous lifes...

Last year I was here only 10 days and many nice things happened.

For example I really wanted to visit one garden but also arboretum, but they were quite off the road and about 5 km from each other. BUT I was hitchhiking there and I stopped a woman, that gave me lift to arboretum and when I was ready, I wrote her SMS and she picked me up in arboretum and took me to the garden, where I wanted to go.

Or I visited a lighthouse, that was totally off the road and I told to myself, that maybe only god can help me from this place :-) So I met a woman with 2 priests and they not only gave me a lift, but also invited me for a cake and tea in the restaurant and bought me a ticket for lighthouse.

This year I came again, but now whit a different idea. I will try to find some work in Dublin.

But before that, I am staying in Wexford for few days and I am looking after friend's dog. But again - also traveling, mostly hitchhiking.

And again what happened today. Wow I really didn't expected something like this, but...hitchhiking, stoping a car, conversation...and suddenly I have a bike! A gray haired man with a good hearth gave it to me. Like from a fairytale :-) First I thought, he is only joking, but no...Thank you!

Yes it is true, that I was thinking about it, that I need some, but it works very fast! I am thinking about it maybe only 3 days...thank you my protective angels :-)

When I was cycling from the beautiful beach back to Wexford I was thinking about many many things.........

If I love people, they also love me, if I hate people, they hate me, if I don't see people, they don't see me, if I tell bad things about them they will do the same and so and so......it seems to be so easy, just always know it and have it in the heart and everything gonna be all right :-)

But if they say bad things about me, it doesn`t matter, anyway I won`t do the same to them. I just don't care, that`s the best way, how to react on this things.